zeitlang / five things I do to distract myself

playing online chess and not giving myself fully to it
that keeps me busy for twenty minutes, and then I’m back to
wondering what you’re thinking about right now.

checking my e-mail accounts, all five of them, spam folders included
and I do this intermittently, unintentionally
but it takes less than ten seconds, and then I’m back to
wondering what you’re wearing right now.

watching Brooklyn Nine-Nine for the millionth time,
checking my phone obsessively while it plays in the background
realizing it’s not helping but still keeps my mind kinda busy
but an episode lasts around twenty minutes, and then I’m back to
wondering if you’re laughing about something right now.

trying to read some articles about Affect theory, being unable
to comprehend most of the parts, and then I’m back to
wondering what you are listening to right now.

going to Hesseneck to get a couple of drinks and talk to
some fellow heart-broken dudes, but Kostas closes the place
around 2 AM, and then I’m back to
my cold bed, wondering how it would be to sleep with you right now.